It’s still hard to even believe I have done it.
Hard to believe that I did in fact achieve my ultimate running goal, the only hard set running goal I ever had.
You know I am an intuitive person, so I do not usually set goals, but this was one I had from the very beginning, from the first time I really started to care about the sport at age 14.
This is an emotional time, and in some ways it doesn’t even feel real; I, Tina Muir, ran in a WORLD Championship representing GREAT BRITAIN AND NORTHERN IRELAND, and I like to think that I did myself and everyone who has supported me, proud.
I could probably write a 6 part post about the experience. I could probably go on for hours sharing every little detail, but I want to enjoy this time being out in the proper English Countryside with my family. I am away from them most of the year, but I have this small window of opportunity between now and the London marathon to cherish some time with them, and I intend on making the most of it.
But that being said, I am an emotional person, I am an honest and open person, and I want to share my thoughts, at least with myself, getting them down on paper…well, on a keyboard, and I think you will want to read those inner thoughts too, to hopefully show that you too can do what you set your mind to, you too can have a dream that you work towards every day for years, using it as motivation on those days you just dont feel it, and someday you will get there, if you truly want it bad enough and believe that you deserve it.
Yesterday I got to make my dream a reality, and rather than me going to bed that night feeling accomplished, kind of putting my running to bed a little, I felt more hunger, more desire to really see what I can do.
I always worried that once I did this, that I would just lose all motivation to train, but I guess that is how we as runners work, always wanting more, never happy haha.
But today, I woke up excited, knowing that I have so much more in there, and now I have shaken the rust off, shaken those nerves away, I will be able to do even better next time.
However, one thing I should note:
Last night I actually went to bed upset.
I am sensitive, I think everyone reading this blog knows that.
But unfortunately, one comment from someone who is important to me was going round and around in my mind. I had such an incredible day, yet I just could not let it go.
It threatened to tarnish my whole outlook of the experience, and in fact, that night it did. Rather than thinking about the race, about the whole experience, all I could think of was that.
Thankfully though, I was sent some photos of me finishing the race by Nicky Hayes. This was enough to flip my outlook back to positive, and make me remember just how happy I was as I finished yesterday.
It made me realize something.
If I am going to put myself in the limelight by sharing my feelings with the world the way I do. If I am going to put myself under fire by representing my country, I need to toughen up. I need to accept the downside of that. I am going to hear comments that may hurt my feelings, especially as I have always said I respect honesty. Even though I am sensitive, I cannot let them take away from my accomplishments.
I ran for my country in a world championship, and not only did I finish 49th, but I was the 3rd british runner home. I think I proved that I deserved that opportunity, especially for my first time with only having 3 days notice to prepare for the race.
When I was in college, coaches used to call me “money in the bank” as I always could be relied upon to race well when it mattered. Although this stage was 100000x scarier than anything I have ever done in my life, I feel like I rose up to the challenge, and I will only get stronger each time from now.
I am so thankful for this opportunity. The Great Britain team leaders were absolutely fantastic, I did not feel like I was intruding, and I did not ever get the feeling that I didnt deserve to be there.
It was the greatest running experience of my life so far, and one I will never forget.
I will share the ins and outs in my next post, and I will slowly get back to all the kind, wonderful, supportive, loving comments. Thank you SO MUCH for those.
But for now, I am going to step away for a few days, and be with my family, trying to relax.
while eating this for breakfast…..
and this for dinner…
and of course I earned a good dessert (my favorite, sticky toffee pudding)
Marathon training right?
Time for rest. Time for recovery. And time for me to go chill.
But what do I want to leave you with?
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What is your lifelong running dream?